Kiss in 2005

It’s just another day.

You go out, have some drinks, get home late and go to sleep. This is no different than any other random night out- so why does it feel different? What makes this night a fresh start?

Because a calendar says so?

Or is it because the whole world watches the clock for those last few seconds-

5….this time will be different…..4…..I won’t make so many mistakes……3……I will love myself more……..2……..please let things get better…….1……..Happy New Year!!

And if you are very lucky, you have someone who loves you to kiss and bring in the New Year on a good note.

The New Year always makes me very emotional. It’s not really that I feel that it’s special- any day can be a new year. Any time you go to sleep and wake up can be a fresh start. Any time you suddenly realize something and change your mind can be a fresh start.

I think what gets to me in particular is the camaraderie. Everyone for one second is perfect. Guilt free, grief free, sin free. For one second everyone together wishes for better things. For one second everyone together wants the world to change for the better. It’s like the whole world breathing a gigantic sigh of relief before everything returns (unfortunately) to normal. And the weight- the weight is actually lifted off of your shoulders….

…if only for a moment.

I don’t believe in New Years Resolutions. Mainly because I never kept one in my life. I decided a long time ago that if I was going to make changes in my life that I would randomly pick a day that is otherwise meaningless and make that into my “change” day. Today is a celebration of a change day for me- one month ago I quit smoking. So, today I celebrate myself- and it has nothing to do with the New Year. (Yay me, I rock.) And my celebration will be locking myself in the studio and working on music all day, because it’s my favorite thing to do.